The battlefront!
Ola toodles!



when you put your life on the battlefront, you have to be prepared to die or to bring glory to the organisation you are fighting for..but what everybody has always not prepare is that, they never prepare how to encounter the lost..precisely i didn't..and that's why i cried when i got your reply..i'm definitely not angry at you because it was ur choice..i ain't god.. to tell you what to do..but i reallie thank you for the sincerity..and i thank you for your company all these while..i reallie appreciate it..why?



Few mths ago..i was caught totally unprepared by a breakup which left me topsy turvy and the worst Redhwan people has ever seen..the one that doesn't believe in himself..the one that does stupid stuffs and the Redhwan that people never expect to see..but when you came you brought me my remedy..you gave me a power so strong that it brought back my confidence..you were my new pillar of strength..but before i could even decorate or savour that pillar it went down..but i had no choice..once again i was weak..not strong to face it..not strong to pull that pillar again..why?

because i was never prepared how to face the worst..



You dun have to say sorrie..it wasn't ur fault..i understand that you didn't want to break my heart..u continously showed sign of wanting to be frens but i was too stubborn to play with fire till i burnt myself not just my hands..now i'm hurt..i'm terribly hurt..



So you guys should roughly get the idea what happen huh?090908..tragedy..3 days before my egg crack..i've recieved the worst present so please dun give me anymore..can?like in the previous post when this date would be so beautiful next year..but for me it would never be beautiful but a date that i would remember all my life..not for the right reasons but for all the wrong ones..



I'm not embarass that i lost..because those who are have this huge ego in them..bcoz i feel that this is the place where i pen down my thoughts..i'm very happy that this had to end earlier..lucky for me it didn't happen on my b'dae..



Perhaps its true what you say..we might be better as frens..let's see whether its true..and u said we will be together if we are meant to be for each other..we'll see..but wait?isn't that what every girl who turned down ur proposal said?she said who knows it might be a change this time round?we'll see..wah!i have so many things to see..gotta prepare my eyes..gotta prepare myself for the worst and gotta prepare myself how to face the worst..



Is there ever a right time to fall in love?

NEVER..but why people reject is that they are never prepared to fall in love..love doesn't go with time..love goes with feelings..but because feelings follow time love have something gotta do with time..one day perhaps the time comes and feelings change and you'll fall,fall in love..fat hope ah wan eh!



Right now i'm feeling terrible..i ain't gonna hide it because i ain't gonna let it be this way..i'm gotta pick myself up and be stronger than ever before..because i've learned..dun juz be prepared for the worst but be prepared how to face the worst..



So toodles readers!!till we meet in the next post!

chaoz!